our down stairs neighbor, phyllis, is a member of our church here. i was talking with her one day while we were doing laundry and she told me that her husband is in a nursing home, and she goes to visit him at every meal. he has alzheimers, and sometimes he remembers her and other times, he doesn't. and she told me, "well, you take the good with the bad."
if i read my bible and pray every single moment of every single day, it won't make me less lonely or more happy, it will just allow me to know God more. it will let me know truth from lies. so when i get lonely and i feel like things won't ever get better, i can read scripture and see that God says, "i know the plans i have for you, plans to prosper, not to harm you." and trust that he has a plan. it doesn't take away my loneliness, but it is a comfort.
today, timmy and i were listening to a cd that eric, from the youth group, is letting us borrow. the band is called saosin* it says, "you're not alone, there is more to this i know! you can make it out! you will live to tell!" and it just reminded me that there are bad seasons.
loneliness is hard. but i've been here before. and everything has turned out fine before. so im just going to trust, and tell God how hard it is, and ask for His help.
love.
1 comment:
i love what you wrote. i need to be reminded of these things often. remember when you moved to ozark and my dad was hassling you and you didn't like it and we all felt a little lonely at times... in time we made everlasting friendships. i pray that you will have those kinds of relationships with the people in iowa. i'm so glad you guys are there and i know that God is using you.
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