im excited. i haven't played a show for a while. and i have some new songs to try out. i realized i have none of my songs about Jesus up on my myspace. it's always a little scary to play those in front of a crowd with which i have no relationship whatsoever. i'm sure it will be fine. God has a plan. i'm praying for some good conversations and hopefully some new friends. its been hard to meet people our own age here.
today im going to fort madison again. this time with donnie, my new mentor. we're going to get notebooks and pens. donnie journals like nothing i've ever seen before. and she likes fountain pens, so we're going to a store called "pendemonium" that only sells pens. and we're buying notebooks for a women's meeting that she's speaking at this coming monday. she invited me to tag along with her to that as well, and i'm really excited about going.
i feel like i'm starting to settle here. my last "breakdown" was a week ago. and it was by far the worst one i've had so far here. and hopefully my last. donnie suggested that i might be pregnant. but, i'm pretty sure i'm just depressed.
i'm trying to focus on knowing God, trusting God, believing what He says- and focus less on me. an ever present struggle; more of him, less of me. but i believe it's worth the struggle. the freedom and peace that come from knowing Christ's love and plans for me are totally worth it.
anyway, i'm going for it.
love.
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if having regular breakdowns equals pregnancy then i'm pretty sure i've been pregnant for the past 4 years...
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